Somewhere in between "Eat Pray Love" and "The Pursuit of Happyness"

• I want to eat what I want and when I want to, without the self badgering guilt trip; yet I still wanna keep my shape that I work hard for in the gym. I want to pray not just when I need it, but at all times & especially in times of gratitude. I want to love and embrace myself, and love & appreciate others at all walks of life no matter how short or long they're in my life, because everyone serves a purpose. 

• I also want to muster up the courage and bravery to live life with laser vision & stay focused on my purpose; yet do so quietly & eloquently as not to show any pain from the struggle. I want to push myself to grow in all areas of my life because I don't want to become complacent or lazy.

• So where's the balance? Am I the only nut job with these constant thoughts? Shouldn't I just be ok and grateful with life, and screw the overthinking lol I'm picturing that meme where the person is throwing a pile of papers in the air saying, "Eff this I'm outta here...Oh wait it's only Thursday, I need this". 

• Maybe because I feel like there's more to life than just getting by on autopilot. That we should make the most of it and get out there living! 

• I think that this way of thinking and evaluating our own lives is what helps us grow. To think that we can be just a smidge better each day while enjoying where we already are is still moving us in the right direction...all the way up! 

• Eat the pasta, work your ass off and love life!